sparkle debacle

I know I always say I don’t post on here much. I really don’t. But I simply find other things are more important.

Actually, thats’s not really true. Other things seem more important because they’re worked related but I enjoy posting on here, I like sharing fun internet things and sometimes it helps get things off my chest. It only takes a short time to update here so I guess I just need to find 10 mins once a day or starting using that sweet little favourite that will post for you whatever I’m looking at .

Life is fantastic at the moment. Really.  I feel like I have the best husband in the world and the best little fur family and well, I am just blissful! Really! Sure, everyone has something they can complain about - but why bother? If I get down about things it might last an hour or so, then I move on. There’s no point dwelling, life is much too short!

It seems, to most, probably really weird. But my appreciation of things really returned with my kitty.  No one except Steve probably saw how much I missed him. A cat, yes I know. But some days he is the best company I get (working from home can be lonely!) and while it may make me seem like a crazy cat lady. I adore  his fat cat personality and can’t imagine how I managed without his cuddliness.

Anyway, I’ve set myself a goal to lose a *FINAL* 3.5 kgs by 2010. Since I set the goal last week I’ve lost just under half a kilo so it’s more like 3 now. I’m pretty positive that I can do it but it’s a hard slog. Saturday my legs were so sore I took ibprofen. go figure.

The way some people have reacted to my weight loss is a little surprising. I wouldn’t  have thought feeling better about yourself is something that would make other people so crabby!  Then again, who really cares.

Contrary to what some people probably think I did not lose weight in order to look better. Sure, it was a consideration but not the driving factor. I want children, hopefully within the next 5 years. I was not confident I could do that job justice the way I felt. I have a massive family history of heart disease. I deserve better than that. Mrsteve deserves better than that. I am now confident I am no longer at significant risk of all those horrible problems caused by being overweight. 

I am also confident I have lost weight the RIGHT way. No cutting foods totally from my diet, no juice only for a whole week or soup or whatever that shit is. I understand it, I really do. I was frustrated about my weight for years before I saw any progress.  It was simple really, I just never got it. Eat less, more more and weight will come off!  I am maintaing fairly easily and not really craving the things I used to.

I do crave though! Twisties, I’ve been craving since I first started losing weight. They are one of two things I have not allowed myself to eat at all. The other is a big fatty fatburger - ie quarter pounder. Sometimes the cravings are awful! But I just know once I start I will just crave more, it’s not worth it.

So, I guess I’ll continue to preach that it is a permenant change. Don’t expect to cut carbs out for a month and then keep that weight off when you start eating them again. And if it were me, if I denied myself carbs for a whole month I’d be stuffing my face full of them at the end of the month, lol.

anyway, that’s enough yabbering for now.

xx me